Day 14- N is for nap time
I’m glad my brother was willing to go home just so I could take a nap while I recover from being sick
Growing up to become the self-reliant person that I am, I have a hard time doing two things: 1. Sharing my work load with another person and 2. Allowing myself to get taken care of. And while the latter does take place (and I am trying very hard to allow the former) once in a while, it leaves me with the most uncomfortable feeling on the planet. It actually stresses me out more than relieves me, leaving me feeling as if one believes I am incapable of caring for myself.
And what makes me a horrifyingly horrible person to live with is that I need to have that kind of control over myself in order to function properly. Otherwise, I end up doing nothing — which after two months of living with someone earlier in the year, I realize is an actual thing. Now, with my parents back in the house, all that energy I wish I’d put forth the effort into taking care of myself or even for my roommate, is lingering around waiting to explode because it went unused.
So here’s a list of things I miss about living alone:
But dear God, because I’m not doing these things doesn’t mean I’m lazy. It means that with someone else in the house, it is impossible to get to it before anyone else does because I have to wait until I get home or schedule my day. And holy hell, I am getting really fed up with coming home to my laundry done. It not only pisses me off, but results in my laundry cycle being thrown off and clothes go missing and mothereff….like, parents I appreciate what you bestow upon us chilgren but fuck. Dude. Coddling is on the list of things you should never do to a child. Especially when you didn’t do it to her as a child….it makes no sense.
moving out is going to be the best thing to happen to anyone in this house.
Doing another one of these to see if it helps me keep my sanity. FMS Photo a day - October (starting a day late)
2 - B is for Blue Blanket I got for my Birthday
This is so beautiful
Imagine how it would look if the Orion nebula is only four light years away - the distance the nearest star is to us, instead of 1,300 light years. It would be so bright that we wouldn’t be aware of the dark sky. We wouldn’t see other stars. The whole world would be the Orion nebula and the sun.
Cupcake for your thoughts.
Once A Weirdo…
Yet another glorious reason to move to Canada.
if magikarp can do nothing and then suddenly grow up to be really useful then so can i
hooked on a feeling, BLUE SUEDE // go all the way, THE RASPBERRIES // spirit in the sky, NORMAN GREENBAUM // moonage daydream, DAVID BOWIE // fooled around and fell in love, ELVIN BISHOP // i’m not in love, 10CC // i want you back, JACKSON 5 // come and get your love, REDBONE // cherrybomb, THE RUNAWAYS // escape (pina colada), RUPERT HOLMES // o-o-h child, THE FIVE STAIRSTEPS // ain’t no mountain high enough, MARVIN GAYE* // abc, JACKSON 5*
*technically on the second mixtape, but whateveri will survive, GLORIA GAYNOR // mrs. robinson, SIMON & GARFUNKEL // my sharona, THE KNACK // bennie and the jets, ELTON JOHN // sweet caroline, NEIL DIAMOND // kung fu fighting, CARL DOUGLAS // shining star, EARTH WIND & FIRE // boogie fever, THE SYLVERS // bohemian rhapsody, QUEEN // ymca, THE VILLAGE PEOPLE // raindrops keep falling on my head, BJ THOMAS // (shake, shake, shake) shake your booty, KC & THE SUNSHINE BAND // one bad apple, THE OSMONDS // the lion sleeps tonight, ROBERT JOHN // i’ll take you there, THE STAPLE SINGERS*
*i don’t think peter’s mother would have put this very-clearly-about-sex song on there, but i like it
I think I get this.
NEW STORY! “THE FEAR AWAKENED” Hope you enjoy it! :D :D :d :p
About a year ago, I started a personal challenge and stopped right before things started getting crazy. Since then, I’ve learned and grown and ultimately realized I’ve been perfectly fine the way I’ve been. Here’s to loving myself and the rest of the world.
While many people that actions speak louder than words, I don’t exactly believe that they do for me. I understand that you can’t believe every word that comes out a person’s mouth because what they’re saying could be extremely false and then you see him/her totally contradict him/herself in action. However, you can’t believe a damn thing I do more often than not. I know it sounds silly, I can’t prove it if you don’t see it but I have a tendency to pretend I can’t and then blow you away later. Force of habit, I guess. I live my life in almost complete secrecy from my family because I’ve gotten so tired of their condescending tones about how my dreams are invalid. So I don’t let them see what I’m doing. Thus, I don’t let many people see what I’m doing until I’m done doing it. Otherwise, I get extremely anxious.
To add, I will believe every word that comes out of your mouth until you prove to me that I shouldn’t. I expect you to do the same. Because I won’t treat you the way my mind does. Just listen, look away for just a moment and then you’ll see it. Trust me.